Looky Here

well looky here its lucky me
what is it that my daddy sees
...its quiet and cold and much too dark
waiting for that fear-full draft

i wrap up tight around my toes
just a tiny hole for my nose
...its warm in here under the covers
trying to keep out familial lovers

lets see what you have there
baby girl
i'll show you mine
i'll rock your world

floating above the world below
i close my eyes and see the show
dont look at me im the highest
hush now baby please be quiet

daddy loves you little girl
you keep his secret like a squirrel
dig down deep and bury it there
and float away high in the air

it feels so good doesnt it honey
it feels better than all the money
mom and dad cant give you much
but pop can show you how to touch

but im so far away up high
i cant feel you touch my thigh
my heart is swelling i feel it big
no more to bury no room to dig

my tummy hurts mom
i dont feel so good
i couldnt find my way back down
i just kept on flying all around

i saw you sleeping all alone
while daddy showed me how to moan
...im sorry mom i tried to stop him
i thought i was flying but i was flopping

out of water out of bed
i feel dizzy stop my head
...there you go my baby girl
i told you i could rock your world

now close your eyes and go to sleep
and in the morning not a peep
because daddy loves
his little girl
and looky here
shes like a squirrel

Poetry as a beginning.

It's always hard to write about yourself and your life, so I am going to begin by posting some poetry. If I can do more later, I will. Thanks for reading!

I'm talking now

Dont tell me how to save myself

From truth or lies or anything else

Ive been there and done that

And I have a place to hang my hat

Ive been alone, Ive been with you

Nobody knows my color blue

Theres more to my story than youll ever see

But a clue, perhaps, or maybe three

My papa was a preacher man

Who touched his kids, his harem clan

When I got older I drank and screamed

A legion of demons tearing my seams

My mother said she never knew

She doesnt believe and neither do you

So I drank and drugged and abused myself

I just couldnt place it on the shelf

Ive been in places high and low

Met people you will never know

Searching, searching for my soul

Ending with an empty bowl

Half way around this earthly plane

I found that I was still the same

Strong, intelligent and above all defiant

Ive wrestled down the biggest giant

The lesson I share I lived and learned

Patience kept me from getting burned

You say you dont care what I think

Patience will bring me back from the brink

And even though you now hate me

Ill patiently wait till truth you see

So here I sit, listening to you

Trying to tell me what do